Letter Month 27

Dear Sena,
I'd like to take this time to point out that I'm early with this post, and I think it has something to do with a mindset I'm trying so desperately to adapt... that I need to value my time and prioritize. No more to-do lists that are miles long. And no more saying yes to things that I'd really rather say no to. What I really want to do is be here for you. I want to spend mornings crafting and coloring your new (and yes, I'm proud of this) cardboard playhouse I made. I want to listen to you sing. I want to watch you as you watch the world..

This last week your aunt Tanya & uncle Charles and cousins, Ella and Shiloh came to visit. You instantly became smitten with Ella.. and it is so amazing for all of us to see. Ella is incredibly gentle with you, and slows down enough that you can join her on her journeys. She even offered you some of her cupcake the other day, and holds your hand when you want to walk with her. Watching the two of you, and knowing you'll be just as close with Shiloh is amazing and also a little sad. Unfortunately, we live quite a distance apart from your only cousins, and we only get to see them about once a year. So, we'll have to figure out some way to keep everyone involved. I'm not sure how, but I'm hoping that some creative thoughts come across my mind.





You're convinced that not only is your new baby sister's name Orange, but that you ALSO have a baby in your belly. You proudly show me your belly whenever you notice mine (which is hard to Not notice) and tell me baby sister is in there. In some ways I can't wait to see you with your sister, and really can't wait to see the two of you grow up together- especially after watching you with your two cousins. In other ways, however, I just really want to savor you. I want to enjoy all of this one-on-one time we have and cherish every minute, listen to your every thought and your every opinion on the world. And really this is what wins out.. Being present right now for you and for all that life is.

We love you very much. Your latest and greatest is your fascination with the Beatles. You know nearly all the words to Ob-la-di, Ob-la-da, as well as Yellow Submarine and are quickly learning the words for Octopus' Garden. I'm going to get these on video and post as soon as I figure out how to do so... so the world can see.

Love you,
mama

Mama's baby bump about 28 weeks..